I've had a momentary lapse in...well...I can't really pinpoint the actual specific type of lapse, but I definitely have a lapse somewhere in my thought processes right now. Or not really, but I am having trouble getting on this thing and writing.
Just enjoying the lingering void I suppose.
I guess this post is a sort of placeholder. But more will come soon. More placeholders. Upon placeholders! Upon plaaaaaceholders!
And then I can start to write something and then go: "No just kidding! This is a placeholder too!" And then I will keep placeholding and placeholding until it becomes infinite. And when it has entered that infinite loop, and when that engine can turn its pistons and run on its own...then I will drive it straight to HELL! Because it will already have some sort of chassis surrounding it, since you can't really drive an engine. You could if it had wheels I suppose, but I can't imagine it feeling too good, since engines get hot. Maybe if you had some sort of insulating rug that you could sit on...but it would still be warm. And bugs would fly into your eyes. Then you would crash and die. You would have to invest in a windshield. And eventually, all of these remedies for these inconveniences would culminate in the construction of an actual car! But you would never get there because you spent the rest of your money on that pepperoni calzone! And oh, was it worth it. Finally, you would never have been able to drive the car because the engine was only an abstraction of words and ideas! And abstractions do not have physical causation! They cannot directly interact with the material world at all! Their entirety lies in our minds. Interpretations. Metaphors for what is really going on. And what is really going on cannot be grasped from interpretation.
I just realized I went from first person to second person to aphorism somewhere in there. I can't even figure out what happened just now.
There's meaning in them there chaos.
I just don't know what it is yet.
This I do not doubt.
Shit.
