Yeah well you know. It's a dry heat.
Oblivion is in the bag. Yeah I just beat it. 200 hundred or so game hours later. Yeah I really do mean like, 200 thousand hours, with those two hundreds compounding each other by multiplicity or something. And I'm gonna play it more. Why am I even mentioning this? I don't know. It just seems like a life milestone or something you know man? You're born, you learn to walk, you learn to speak, you learn to read and write, you graduate elementary school, you graduate junior high (no scratch that, junior high sucks), you get your driver's license, you graduate high school, and then you beat mother fugging Oblivion, B! What is next? I don't know if I can top that. I just don't know. Maybe if I go back in time using only my mind...no wait, we already do that...according to some people. But maybe it is just complicated data retrieval. Don't take the magic out of life, sit! I meant to say shit, but sit came out, so thus it came to be. You know, I didn't really think while writing that paragraph, no this one, not that. This one that is still this paragraph. Jeez man. Look what happens when you make a mistake and don't bother to cover it up. Or many mistakes. I made alot of mistakes in this paragraph. There are syntactical mistakes, and conceptual mistakes, and grammar mistakes, and whatever else man. I don't care.
I'm scared of the world. Really, I don't want to go out there. Big business makes me sad. Money makes me sad. Cruelty makes me sad. Greed makes me kinda sad cause I've been kinda greedy before and it feels kinda good. But it is bad. It makes me sad. Exploitation makes me sad. Social expectations make me sad; some of these more specific and demanding expectations, Jesus, let them go. Aggressive malignant ignorance makes me sad. There's so much in this country right now. Power makes me sad. Oh there is so much that makes me sad. This stuff carries a weight of its own. Slows down the movements.
But then there are the things that make me happy. Maybe these things have enough bouyancy to counter this weight. Maybe it is enough for an equilibrium, and maybe it will wax and wane in either direction depending on the context and that is ok. You know, I like good movies. I like good music. I like good games. I like the underdog. I like friends. I like family. I like sunsets. I like good people. Good depends on who you are talking to, but when good is good, it works out. I like sweets, you know? And I like other shit. Maybe there is more to like than there is stuff that makes me sad, and that is important.
That is really important.
