This internet offers a sort of viewing window on the outside world.
Running on beta waves is creating that feeling of lying on the ocean floor, just watching.
I could watch people in the world, these past acquaitances, and they have long departed for other corners of the country and branched off onto their own paths, to embark on that journey that we all take. But I can watch them, however 2d the experience is, and I can watch their current life unfold for as far as they tell the truth on that glorious web blog.
Just watching on the ocean floor, sedate, and there is no reason to call out to them. Some of them are on their marry way. Some of them are no less ignorant than when I knew them and that can be ok. Some of them are sad. This makes me somewhat sad as well, but I still have no desire to call out to them.
There is one thing for sure. The more people I look up and observe how their surface life is going, the more empty I feel inside. I can't tell what is causing this. People are supposed to act as mirrors to show you who your true self is. I think I operate differently than this, and that is where the emptiness comes from.
We know ourselves in relation to the people around us. Without evil there could be no good, and etc. Maybe that is why we are such creatures of information. Each of us is a node and all of us as nodes are in constant communication, reinforcing small little connections that build into networks, that eventually build into a cohesive consciousness. That's what I make from the current reading anyway.
In the past, I have a been a person of art and emotion, and now in the present I am more of a person of logic and rationality, though I have not lost the artistic aesthetic. Logic is comfortable, but it is turning out to be so boring. I am hoping that I move back in the art/emotion direction in the future, and maybe establish an equilibrium between the two extremes.
Moderation! Moderation!
Science cannot tell us all truths for there is too much we do not know. And in the end it is all a metaphor for something bigger, and beyond understanding.
Art cannot be leaned on too heavily in the search for the meaning of life, for blind faith leaves too much to the dice.
Moderation! Moderation!
I have been too preachy lately. Too full of philosophical words that should be in a book to be read. Just a phase.
There is a lot of philosophy going in at the moment, and what goes in must come out eventually.
Pardon.
