Just write this essay, finish this paper, ace this test, pass this quarter, then the next, another 2 years, and then a career, maybe, maybe not.
Smile, remain civil, try to blend in. Dress like them, walk like them, talk like them.
Do what you're told, try, try, try to blend in. Cannot stress this enough. Play the charade. Jump through the hoops.
Try to understand these rational thoughts broadcasting. Suppress the animal for now, it is not appropriate.
Then maybe you get a taste. Maybe not.
Not easy, whatever the case.