Yes, the computer is fixed. Ah, but the hard drive was torched. There was no saving it from The Drip. But sometimes losing a hard drive is an alright thing if you have everything backed up. Reconfiguring Windows on a new drive is much like shedding an old, worn skin, and donning a brand new shiny one. In the mind anyway. It is temporarily starting a new life, until everything is loaded again and slowly the media libraries rebuild and the old habits resurface and everything is as it should be and the old life catches up with you and that new skin becomes old and worn once again.
That does not mean that nothing changes however. The equilibrium that is routine follows along a path of change, yes! Great alterations or even slight changes in direction cause the equilibrium to fall to pieces until it rights itself once again, but when it rights itself it is in a different place than before, however similar its form is to the form that was. Yes, there is change. And some people go through more change than others. For some it is almost imperceptible, yes, these are the friction against the momentum of the human collective. I, the accelerator, the mover, the driving force at this current age, youth, along with the others, urge change. It takes its origin from the screaming nerves, the mystery of unhappiness, the negative reaction to stimuli, and etc.
All this to say that this quarter feels very different to me. That life is changing and appears in a very different light than before; that 5 years ago I never would have begun to conceive of this state of mind...and there is so much more to do. Greet it with a mixture of fear and excitement.
Like a setting sun already behind the distant hills, the edge of the horizon a glowing white fading softly upward into darker and darker blues and finally a descending dark purple to black. Oh my, the coming night! What creatures come out at this time? But oh, what beautiful, colorful neon lights!
