I've got this panel that ripped off the inside of the back wheel well on my car, and supposedly if it rains...the pipes that it was protecting could get damaged. I haven't quite gotten around to correcting the ah...panel problem. And the skies are growing darker.
Strange people in a familiar town. There's always been this sort of surface tension that the social world rests on, and beneath that, whatever goes on in ourselves that we don't care to let out. I've seen strange things bubble up to the surface given the right circumstances. Jung has got this whole persona/anima thing going on that is sort of like this. Along with his archetype ideas the man is on to something. Was. It seems sort of obvious after all these advances in psychology and sociology and whatnot. But when you begin to experience it for yourself, three dimensionally, in all its vividness, and not just reading about it in a book, it begins to become a little unsettling. Like starting to concentrate on your own breathing. Oh, yes, we've been over this.
Bad writing on this blog. Half baked ideas. Well, its not like I'm sending it all out in a package. Stop worrying.
I never was good at expressing these things. I try to tell my philosopher friends this, here and there. Makes for strange pauses in dialogue. Well, onward into maturity then. With time. We're still just kids. Learning to drive, or something like that. Mastery is when it becomes a lower function (or higher, depending on how you look at it). In the background. You don't even have to think about it. Free to express. Must be how those guitar virtuosos feel. Or any virtuoso.
Here I am again delaying going to bed. I need the sleep. But to wake up to tomorrow seems very unappealing. Always does when you miss school. Had to stay home today. And it was good. But its gone. And I'm getting behind all the time. I don't know how I make it through all this. I can't remember any of it. But it must be sticking. Things pop up here and there.
Something better be sticking.
Fluff. Pile up the fluff. Oh well. At least it makes one of us feel better. For the time being.
