It must have been a combination of fatigue, hunger, and Acid Mothers Temple, or maybe it was all Acid Mothers Temple, as it can have extreme effects by itself, but I was sitting on a bench at school at 3 (I had waited 3 hours, and I had less than an hour for the discussion class to start) and my mind was a complete...I don't even know, a tilt fuck. It was like an actual bad trip. There were the birds above dashing from tree to tree, and the bees buzzing under them, and the spider webs glinting in the sun, and random bugs and flower buds falling on me, and there were all these groups of people gathering for something on the other benches and they had name tags and big smiles and clipboards and along with the oscillating noise music it was complete madness. So I spontaneously got up from the bench and started walking for class. Class was far from starting, but I had to move. No matter what. I was halfway to the building, and there was the open parking lot, and I thought, jesus I should just leave, this is bullshit. I can't sit through that class for an hour in this state, much less wait another hour to get to it. I won't hear a word the guy says, and then there's rush hour and hell it's not worth it. So I just kept walking out and out and out.
I got to the car park and I thought, holy shit what am I doing? I had waited 3 hours and now I was leaving. I didn't even remember walking there. And I'm only in Week 2 of school, I can't be doing this...this early. And then I drop to my knees and shout to the heavens, "I can't do this anymore!" and begin weeping and beg a higher power to give me strength and however else that goes. But I did get to my car and it was quiet inside and the madness shut off like a light.
And I just realized that if those guys never urged people not to take God's and Jesus' name in vain then nobody would have ever thought to do it. Why even use it as a curse word? It's not even practical for communicative purposes. Someone must have started it precisely because of its taboo.
Who the hell yells "Buddha!" or, ah "Muhammed!" Maybe its a sort of culture curtain and they really do somewhere. But I don't know. I don't see any rules those guys have that take using a name in vain into account. Maybe there are these rules. Where did that even come from? Who thought to do that? Maybe I'm wrong and making a fool of myself. But it did occur to me based on an absence of evidence.
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