My mind has been all over the place, mostly from the accumulated effects of repeated intoxication, sleep deprivation, hyperstimulation, and what have you. Taking a bit of a rest.
But a quick bit on language. Different forms of language have different characteristics. Some words - often visual and expressive words - have this expansionary capacity. They can mean different things to different people but that doesn't seriously hinder communication. They hint at vague feelings that can be agreed upon.
But then a lot of words, a lot of certain kinds of operators, have this binary characteristic. They are like switches, ons and offs. Stuff like "good" and "bad" and "all" and "none." "Some" is a little more squishy.
But the binary words flip a switch, depending on the emotion or level of certainty you are feeling as you say the word. When you try to communicate something in this way you are sort of building this shape, a definitive expression of meaning that the other person is either going to be receptive to, or reject.
So I guess it just helps to remember with this language that one is always constructing something transient. One is trying to grasp the edges of this baffling, complex reality as best as one can at a distinct point in time and space, which could look different to another person (or the same). Everything you attempt to express can be contradicted if someone wants to find a way to do it - this is the point at which someone raises their finger and says, "Ah ah but I don't think everything you attempt to express can be contradicted. More like nothing, or just some." It helps to allow for this in another person as well. One can attach to one's own proprietary lingual shapes and guard them like a monkey standing over a pile of bananas (I don't know), or one can locate truth in something greater than oneself.
That said, I'm going to rest my language for a bit. Yeah probably a day or two. Or a couple of hours, who knows.
