Yes it is very strange, that as this particular society - and certainly others in the past - approaches the acceleration curve of its dissolution ever closer, it becomes more interested in wiping any marker or experience of pain, fear, and death from its immediate span of attention. This is an act which, paradoxically, intensifies discomfort when contact with these things actually does happen.
But then fascists, as if existing as an inversion of this particular waveform, wish to convince everyone that all is dying and that to throw oneself heroically into this state of affairs is to live, which unsurprisingly multiplies death. This is a strange collective, this constellation of constituents that are vibrating at ever-greater rapidity.
What happened to simply living? What happened to life itself, with its disintegration and integration and the acknowledgement of such? Ah yes, yet again I repeat myself, but this is central! To repeat yet again, this is what spiritual practices like meditation (and many others) seek to reconnect with: this perpetual flux of energy, which does in fact collect and persist, particularly after instances of trauma or intense acts of excitement or pleasure, but which itself must dissolve.
That life is constantly hiding from itself, and staying hidden for some time, is something the Hindus understood quite well. Then to awake, to ride the crashing wave down, without worshipping it and accelerating oneself into the ground, and without attempting to climb back up it and perhaps halting it, when one comes to terms with it as it is, one is living.
Of course everyone has their definitions of living, which reflects what they truly are, and which will determine where they proceed. One is to live by denying death, by savoring the last ghostly drops of a waning life, or the echo of an expression of life made long ago, or one can live by becoming death, or one can live by coming to terms with both. And one can also sit in judgement with these respective paths, which is also part of what one is, as one exists as a formation in time and space, a formation with a certain character.
There are always going to be those first drops that roll off of the thawing ice; everyone must take their positions in space, as the energy moves.
But I suppose I'll stop rambling for now. What I'm really doing is attempting to put off doing some work that I should be getting to.
