Coming up on a pretty big transition period here. About to hit the road, and I plan on setting up another site pretty soon, to provide a more public presentation of writings, photography, and who knows what else. I suppose now is the time to get a little more entrepreneurial, as much as I dislike the word, as the peanuts I make aren't quite enough to keep going on.
Still got some posts on the back-burner. Have some other ideas to continue working out, and I have some other threads to pick up too.
It would be nice to be a bit more disciplined with this stuff. But the emotional toll it takes to keep up with the news these days is palpable, I think. There is a way to illustrate this.
I remember when I was mainly eating vegetables, and I started more physical labor, like hauling steel panels and doing roofing and that sort of thing, it would completely wipe out my energy. So I had to start eating more proteins - eggs and meats and that sort of thing - and felt better equipped to do the heavy lifting.
Similarly, sitting down with the news, I find my emotional energy being completely wiped out. This is on top of having work to do, social obligations to meet, and what have you, so it is very difficult maintaining a personal writing schedule, and to stay committed to structured reading that strengthens my project.
The world is fucked, to put it simply. And that fact is very tiring, both to experience and to witness. Unfortunately, there is no easy fix for emotional exhaustion; you can't just start eating more eggs and chicken breasts.
Spiritual practice is one thing, and it does help, but even here there are plateaus. One reaches a certain point in development, and it takes moving in another direction entirely to continue on. Or else one is so overwhelmed that practice suffers. So I'm going to restructure my life and see what happens. There are plenty of ways to go about it.
This is why you see accounts of mystics wandering around in rags, or crawling off to caves, or whatever may be the case. These behaviors can be taken as evidence of massive social upheaval. People are simply unable to maintain their lifestyles. Always an interesting subject, but as always, I'll have to return to these issues in time.
