Friday, January 26, 2018

Hang Tight

The writing here has petered off for a number of reasons. In a depressive state, the mind - or at least my mind - becomes more passive and more absorptive than it already is, and so it feels as a foggy and sluggish sink of information. At some point the active and constructive creativity will come back, but when that will be is always a question that is up in the air during times such as these.

Further, a depressive perception tends to focus obsessively on what is wrong. This is of course a very useful diagnostic process, but in too great amounts this process only proceeds to a state of paralysis in which misery is the only product, a product which is continuously produced.

To give a macro example of this problem that exists in the individual, no amount of detailed and hand-wringing analysis has changed the fact that explosive oil tankers can continue to lumber across the North American continent unimpeded, occasionally blowing up and casting toxic oil sludge about, which proceeds in every direction by the grace of gravity and paths of least resistance, and which catches fire and causes all sorts of havoc, and in some cases death.

It seems the destructive trends most central to a way of life continue unabated, only to be lamented over as they continue on relatively unobstructed. The executive functions look over the runaway elemental forces with pale faces and clammy hands, like so many Sisyphus types chasing slippery boulders back down their hills, which is a syndrome present in economic processes and individuals alike, wherever there is futile effort and resignation over those stubborn problems which refuse to be solved in the given paradigm. 

I have plenty of material that embodies the endless refinement of obsessive problem identification, and I've grown tired of it. In time a positive analysis should return as I shift into a more constructive life pattern, though there is always the matter of how useful this stuff actually is, and what exactly I'm going to do with it. At least I can write in a relative vacuum while the writing is still enjoyable.