The three posts below are all attempts to tackle a single phenomenon from separate but interrelated angles. An experiment with structure if you will. I've always viewed this blog as a sort of sketchpad, a way to not only present ideas to myself - and to those that read it - for the joy of doing the work in relative silence, but to modulate the various forms of presenting those ideas and meditate on that as well. Still, there is always the danger of becoming a sort of Goldilocks figure, milling about in an empty house, never quite satisfied with the temperature of the porridge, even as the bears make their way back.
Anyway, apologies for the density and the obliqueness of the last couple of months of work. I wanted to move closer to greater accessibility, clarity, and directness, but there is only so much one can do, when one dances with words to mitigate the pain of depression and mania.
The poles of depression and mania themselves give a mixed blessing: an illumination that is afforded from the intensity of attention and feeling, and an obscuring distortion that is caused by extreme oscillating emotions, brain fog, and irritability and exhaustion, among other things.
